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The Wild woman ….. 

She is not afraid of getting her hands dirty or her
face wet with snot and tears.
 
She has learned to sit quietly enough to hear her
inner voice and knows that standing stock still in the middle of busy-ness  in order to listen is only right and
proper.
 
She Sees beauty in the most ordinary of
things.
 
Uses her strengths and acknowledges her
weakness.
 
She sees the frayed edges of her heart as a way to make new beauty, new connections and healing for the world.
 
She uses her creative ways to solve problems, express
joy, change the world.

She is not afraid of the dark and knows that if she
waits there long enough stars will
shine.

She can skip in puddles and appear graceful in her
dressing gown.
 
She is not afraid of being in her own
company.
 
She is able to draw and eclectic tribe to her side. 
  
She hears the music of her own soul and dances to it
with her arms spread wide.

She lives from the truth at the heart of her that
even when she feels small, the truth of her is as vast as the
Universe.
 
She does not need to apologise for the air she draws
deep in to her lungs, the friends she has made among the plants and animals or
the space she takes up because she knows that her presence may be a gift to the
very next person she meets and to skimp on that gift would be selfish and she
thrives in generosity.
 
She lives in the heart of all women and is our true
birthright and our deepest power. 



 this poem was inspired by WILD - the Woman's way to the Wild Creative Heart - which i beleive in with all my wild creative heart - $49 for access to 11 amazing teachers and a self regulated course with a supportive community of INCREDIBLE women...
 
i will be leading a path to healing the archetype of the Too Good Mother - she is the one who tells us to be nice over being true and getting space from her has been revolutionary in my own life  - I would love to see you there xxx

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I have just completed Bloom True, the ecourse by Flora Bowley and Beth Nicholls from Do what you Love for Life.  
I can't really begin to explain this course adequately because it is a painting course, a way to learn how to free up, make beautiful marks...It is not about teaching you to make a painting like Flora.  You won't  come out of the course able to spit out Floraesque work

but that is the gift

 BloomTrue  is a painting course about life, about trusting the process, about following your intuition and being brave.   To make art that is an expression of your unique world view you need to step outside the confines of the expectations and understandings of art as you know it and step into the truth of what makes you happy and what is true for you.  And Flora scatters the breadcrumbs along the path to help you find your way there

for me the key things were....    


TRUST YOURSELF
Flora talks a lot about developing your own voice, finding inspiration in your ordinary day (i am now sketching in the car waiting at school, taken by birds on powerlines, coveting twisted flax pods )..Other courses are often set up to teach you a certain style but Flora's course (co-written with the lovely Beth) is different.  It is cohesive, thorough, generous and much much more than about painting... 

As much as i would like to paint like Flora (and hoop like Flora and have clothes like Flora... yes girlie crush alert) Flora goes one better - she gives us signposts to look out for on our own journey, lets us be alive to our own possibilities, lets us loose with our own choices and ideas and scatters enough crumbs for us to find our way home...

This is the essence of the gift of BLOOM TRUE for me - that Flora helps us to value our own excitement and inclinations, encourages us to listen to our own intuition and shows us that her path to being an internationally recognised artist hasn't happened overnight and is the result of listening to her intuition too.

COURAGE
She has given me the courage to leap over the barrier made by the voice of the inner art critic (the very scary cousin of my inner critic - he has a beret and writes a column in a well respected art magazine in my head) stop me in my tracks with a chorus of "What is THAT? No one will buy that? Pathe-tic!"  and then step on til the next barrier and then how to clamber over that...

I am at the stage of nearly being finished which is for me the scariest stage - it means i am saying - "this  is the best i can do"
i am an inveterate unfinisher - it always gives me the excuse of saying "it is still a work in progress" "oh i  haven't finished that yet"

And now i am being a big brave bloomer girl and finishing 

and this is what i have got     
 
 
i was enjoying a thread on Chris Zydel's facebook page the other day asking about what happens when you don't create

and as i thought about that i began to get that familiar feeling of being tight in my body, frustrated, tied up, bloated and tired 

and i realised there is a term for that 

ok i made up a term for that but still 

i think it has been waiting to be born

it is "Holisitic constipation"

we are made - all of our being is made - to be creative - whether that is finding new solutions to financial problems or solving disputes or diplomacy or mechanical failure - everything requires a creative solution

creativity is not just about putting pretty things down on a surface or wearing hoop earrings or living in a garrett earning no money and drinking absinthe

creativity is being alive to the magic in the world, being open to the possibility that things could be different and grabbing the chance to make that happen

it is exploring ways to explore, finding ways to express or engage with the world in a way that lights it up, it is finding the courage to live from your heart

and if you don't engage with creativity then you develop creative constipation

you can't see beauty or magic

you can't find solutions and only see problems

you are deadened each day and life seems fruitless

you look for things to fill you up (things with a little t) numb you or make this blockage less painful

but i reckon it is not until you get your ovaries firmly in your grasp, be willing to make a complete fool of yourself, get your hands dirty, and your heart open that you start to get rid of the shit that builds up

i want to be an enema for the soul

and 2012 is the year of bringing that to fruition
        
LOOK OUT!
 
 

numinous