so more synchronicities
i have been still dealing with the fallout from the cancelled creative retreat...
grieving really that the first effort i put into backing myself and my need for time away, time immersed in creativity, in building a creative community, in being part of something bigger (and secretly harbouring a wish to be involved in building it) evaporated...
the ugly voice inside me says "you don't deserve it ... haha see!"
but i am trying to reframe it - trying to see it as making space for something better... looking at it from the angle of ...maybe i was wanting others to take care of my self care needs for me when what i am challenged to do actually is be the one to take care of myself...
anyway on to the synchronicity...
i had just been exploring this with the amazing Andrea of ABCreativity and felt much more aligned to it as a possibility and much more able to be kind with myself about the sadness....
and then i spoke to my yoga instructor about her hideous weekend - she had left her love house in the bush (forest for my north american friends) to go to a place up north (also in the bush) to retreat.
the place was noisy, the thermal springs she went to which she finds very healing were full of tourists children doing bombs into the pools and shouting, she got very little sleep and NO peace... she headed home at 8 am the next day and when she got home she realised how quiet it was... how beautifully peaceful her own house was....
that was a pretty clear message to me about how i can choose to percieve things... was it a pure chance that Edith told me about this on that very morning???
i don't think so....
i have been still dealing with the fallout from the cancelled creative retreat...
grieving really that the first effort i put into backing myself and my need for time away, time immersed in creativity, in building a creative community, in being part of something bigger (and secretly harbouring a wish to be involved in building it) evaporated...
the ugly voice inside me says "you don't deserve it ... haha see!"
but i am trying to reframe it - trying to see it as making space for something better... looking at it from the angle of ...maybe i was wanting others to take care of my self care needs for me when what i am challenged to do actually is be the one to take care of myself...
anyway on to the synchronicity...
i had just been exploring this with the amazing Andrea of ABCreativity and felt much more aligned to it as a possibility and much more able to be kind with myself about the sadness....
and then i spoke to my yoga instructor about her hideous weekend - she had left her love house in the bush (forest for my north american friends) to go to a place up north (also in the bush) to retreat.
the place was noisy, the thermal springs she went to which she finds very healing were full of tourists children doing bombs into the pools and shouting, she got very little sleep and NO peace... she headed home at 8 am the next day and when she got home she realised how quiet it was... how beautifully peaceful her own house was....
that was a pretty clear message to me about how i can choose to percieve things... was it a pure chance that Edith told me about this on that very morning???
i don't think so....
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