showing up is a big theme in my life right now

it seems like i am no longer able to just do the expected thing

i am being required to show up

to live as evidence of my truth

to be as the amazing Pixie Campbell says " a walking prayer"

this is bloody hard

i have to be brave, i have to do things that i can see displease others, i have to make time to do my work,

these things are against my training (to give give give to others without replenishment)

doing them has a whole cheerleading squad of inner critics on an occupy movement in my head

but when i step up anyway, to the easel, to the altar, to the outdoors, to my friends, to this course i am pouring my heart into, then the critics are less audible and i get to see beauty unfold

one visible way i can explain this is the amazing women who are attracted to WILD - i mean fucking amazing

another way is with my painting... i have been turning up to my easel and engaging with what is there - not the artcritic with the beret but the colours and the movement - and i have been excited by what unfolds

but then i was called to go a whole other level...Pixie had shown us on SouLodge how to journey with the plant people... and so i journeyed with harakeke- flax,,, asking her if i could share her essence on the canvas  and this showed up - it is not finished and is a bad photograph i am sorry but she excites me so much i feel part of the essence of that amazing,tenacious, giving, connecting plant present when i look at this...

i am stepping up to hold the space for ceremony, spirit, beauty and light to work through me

this is holy work

i have had the great priviledge of stepping through the flap of the  SouLodge that Pixie Campbell has created.
 
It is an online haven for seekers and dreamers

It is a place where those of us who have a layer of skin too few

a heart that seems to be too tender for this world of sharp edges and harsh extremes

eyes that see more than the surface

can go and drink deep from the nourishment that our souls always knew was there, could scent in the breeze or running through aquifers too deep to reach on our own

Pixie has made a vessel with SouLodge that holds the nourishment we need, so that our wings, our hooves, our tails are strong enough to set us free into the world, 

able to do our deepest work and offer our gifts as we were meant to be

whole and alive

it really is that good

Magic has happened - far too magic to be coincidence - healings have occured and connections within myself that are like coming home and revealing a new truth all at once

If you are really looking for deep spirit nurturing and a community of amazoniangorgeousness

SouLodge is for you